Tonight during worship, there was such a sweet Presence of God. I wept with joy and thankfulness as I watched our children in worship. They were all lifting their hands, on their knees, down on their faces in sweet intimate worship of our Lord. I was so overwhelmed with thankfulness and awe at what God has done for these children. Last night one of our little girls was delivered of a demon. A spirit of rejection and abandonment began to manifest and started shouting. She was set free and God did some deep healing in her heart as she forgave her father for sexual abuse. One of the fathers in our house stood in the gap to ask for forgiveness on behalf of the men who had hurt her and released a Father's blessing in her life. Then three of our other kids who are fairly new living with us were all born again. I watched them tonight as they worshipped our Lord in such a sweet Spirit. I watched as Christine our oldest girl led us in songs of praise. She has such a pure heart and a sweet spirit. She has AMAZING prophetic dreams all the time where God shows her all kinds of stuff like encounters with Jesus, who stole what from who, who has died in her village, all kinds of cool stuff. She loves God so very much and has such a strong sense of righteousness and standing up for what is right and telling the truth. I'm so proud of her. I was watching her and just in awe of God at where he has brought her from...a domestic servant with no parents to take care of her, watched her father killed, no hope of a future or education... into a daughter in this house who knows she is precious and loved, a princess now educated speaking fluent English, the leader in her school's Christian club teaching the word of God, with dreams of being a doctor! Bam in the enemies face! haha. I'm just so in awe and humbled at what God is doing here with our kids at home! I found a paper taped to our girls wall the other night that was declaring how much they loved God...that in our house we always pray and in our room we always love one another! So precious. I'm so proud of them. I'm so thankful for what God has done here...creating a family, a place for the spirits of these children to be nurtured, to be loved. Even little Ronnie...he has only been here a couple of weeks...but he has lit up like a light bulb. I know from watching him that he has been neglected and deprived. I'm trying to give him a little bit extra like buying him clothes, sodas and chapatis and sweeties sometimes...just to get into him that there is enough and he will be provided for...the desires of His heart will be met. He is no longer neglected or alone but has his needs met. He has been very sick lately ever since he had such a bad case of malaria. He's become very attached to me ...sometimes waking at night crying for me. Please pray for him and for wisdom to know how to love him with good boundaries...I mean he's like my own child...and yet I know in a couple of months I have to leave here for at least 6 months due to finances and Ugandan elections (often times of instability). Pray for wisdom and grace.
Ah....all that to say. God our Father is so good. I'm in awe of Him. He's such a Healer and a Lover and an AWESOME Father!!!!! Worthy is the lamb.
Monday, June 21, 2010
Thursday, June 17, 2010
The Dreams of God
The threads of my heart
have been woven and spun
into a continent
where dreams lie underground
waiting to be resurrected
whose children I carry
in my own womb
from God's heart
to birth forth destiny
She is pregnant with life
this Mother Africa
arising to shine
as a brighter day
calls her forth
The dawn awakens
with her song of praise
to the One who sees
who knows and believes
in the strength she carries
We have joined hands
this Mother and I
to dream
to love
to war
for the lost and forgotten
princes and princesses
Calling to the sleeping hope
that lies within each one
I watch as it wakes
and smiles come
and tears are wiped away
and dreamers dream again
the dreams of God
the hopes of a Father
the masterpieces of creation
the diamonds of Africa
treasures hidden in darkness
I will shine a light
so the world may see
this beauty mystery
marvelous masterpiece
of a King who dreamed
of a King who painted
of a King who breathed
wove and spun
Royalty
have been woven and spun
into a continent
where dreams lie underground
waiting to be resurrected
whose children I carry
in my own womb
from God's heart
to birth forth destiny
She is pregnant with life
this Mother Africa
arising to shine
as a brighter day
calls her forth
The dawn awakens
with her song of praise
to the One who sees
who knows and believes
in the strength she carries
We have joined hands
this Mother and I
to dream
to love
to war
for the lost and forgotten
princes and princesses
Calling to the sleeping hope
that lies within each one
I watch as it wakes
and smiles come
and tears are wiped away
and dreamers dream again
the dreams of God
the hopes of a Father
the masterpieces of creation
the diamonds of Africa
treasures hidden in darkness
I will shine a light
so the world may see
this beauty mystery
marvelous masterpiece
of a King who dreamed
of a King who painted
of a King who breathed
wove and spun
Royalty
Bridging Worlds...
he other day I was talking with my friend Jennie Joy, an Iris Sudan Missionary, and I was telling her about 3 little girls that I know and see everyday. 3 little girls, two of which are twin sisters, and their younger sister Ruthie. 3 precious little girls, one of whom is in our school church choir and is my absolute favorite to watch during worship because she gets so LOST in the Presence of God worshiping with all her heart and soul and body. 3 little girls who I've told they are princesses, royal treasures, royal daughters of the Most High who has great plans for their future and has given them the inheritance of...salvation, healing, deliverance, provision, and intimate relationship. 3 little girls I've grown to love. 3 little girl sisters ages 5, 8, and 8, who were all raped and infected with HIV/AIDS.
Then Jennie began telling me about some of the street children in Sudan who are so vulnerable and they are often raped during the night and the police officers don't do their job to protect them properly. But ...I didn't have near the same emotional response I did when I heard about Ruthie, Nakato, and Babirye. Because I'm not attached or connected. and I realize that the same is true for all of us. I can tell you all day about these precious little girls that I know their stories their smiles their laughs and have grown to love ...I can tell you about how their tiny innocent bodies were violated...but it won't have the same impact as if you knew them...as if you loved them. And yet they belong to all of us. They belong to the family of Jesus Christ. They belong to us as children in this world...period. As believers, we have a responsibility to every vulnerable child. To every orphan that Jesus promised He would not leave alone but come to them. We have a responsibility to go them and be His hands and feet. God give us bigger hearts that will break for what breaks Yours.
Well in an attempt to bring you into this world...Ive decided to start journaling and writing more...to share what I experience daily as children nearly die in my arms, mothers come begging me for food, children who live alone come to my house asking for food at nearly midnight (like last night), my heart breaks when I hear stories like this of baby Ruthie and her sisters, and all the other beautiful and wonderful things as well. I'm on a mission to stir compassion to awaken the body of Christ to care enough to act. It's not enough to cry or feel pity for someone, that's not love. LOVE MOVES. Love goes Love gives Love saves...LOVE NEVER FAILS.
Then Jennie began telling me about some of the street children in Sudan who are so vulnerable and they are often raped during the night and the police officers don't do their job to protect them properly. But ...I didn't have near the same emotional response I did when I heard about Ruthie, Nakato, and Babirye. Because I'm not attached or connected. and I realize that the same is true for all of us. I can tell you all day about these precious little girls that I know their stories their smiles their laughs and have grown to love ...I can tell you about how their tiny innocent bodies were violated...but it won't have the same impact as if you knew them...as if you loved them. And yet they belong to all of us. They belong to the family of Jesus Christ. They belong to us as children in this world...period. As believers, we have a responsibility to every vulnerable child. To every orphan that Jesus promised He would not leave alone but come to them. We have a responsibility to go them and be His hands and feet. God give us bigger hearts that will break for what breaks Yours.
Well in an attempt to bring you into this world...Ive decided to start journaling and writing more...to share what I experience daily as children nearly die in my arms, mothers come begging me for food, children who live alone come to my house asking for food at nearly midnight (like last night), my heart breaks when I hear stories like this of baby Ruthie and her sisters, and all the other beautiful and wonderful things as well. I'm on a mission to stir compassion to awaken the body of Christ to care enough to act. It's not enough to cry or feel pity for someone, that's not love. LOVE MOVES. Love goes Love gives Love saves...LOVE NEVER FAILS.
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Experiencing His Heart!
My work with orphaned children has brought me into so many revelations of the Father's Heart! All of the children at our school and especially the ones that I am blessed to live with in our children's home become like my own children. I have indeed become a "mother of many". What is so powerful is the way I EXPERIENCE what the Father must go through with all of His children...to a tiny degree...in my heart, in my emotions. God is a God of Love and of course He never panics or fears anything! But I know the heart of my God grieves. People always say guess what? God is in a good mood...and yes God is a God of joy but He is so multifaceted. He is also a God that weeps and grieves when His children are raped, sacrificed to the Devil in exchange for $ (a VERY common practice in Uganda), infected with HIV, and every other EVIL DEMONIC thing. I used to ask myself and God...why He allows these things? Why isn't He stopping it? Why is He so silent? I have learned to a degree of what happens in the Spiritual world as well as the power of the human will and choice which God never violates. However, He also never leaves us...meaning though He may not stop a child from being violated...HE NEVER leaves that child. He is always with them.
A few of our girls at home were recently relocated which was not my choice. I grieved the loss as they left. I had poured heart and soul and prayers and every thing I knew how to pour into those radiant princesses of the King of Kings. God told me to allow what was happening to happen and not to fight against it...which is ANTI my NATURE! lol...If anyone really knows me...you know I'll FIGHT for JUSTICE ESPECIALLY WHEN CHILDREN ARE INVOLVED!! haha! So I kept silent and trusted in my Great Big Father! Recently some of the girls have come back to stay with us. Such joy mixed with a great passion filled my heart. I wept tears of...joy as I had been wounded by love for these girls. But two of them have yet to return...! Today as I was eating breakfast ...I was thinking of how it's not enough. It's not enough for only some of them to be back. It's almost more painful because they are reminders that the other ones are not there. I felt such a hole in my heart at their absence. God whispered to me that He feels the same way...
The name of our ministry is My Father's House! The Lord began to speak to me that the way I was feeling was a tiny ounce of what He feels when His children leave His house... and then return! What joy what Love what wonderful cries there are in Heaven when they return. and when they don't? There is a hole in the heart of the Father that longs for them that aches and pleads for them. He never gives up on them. He always wants them to come back HOME. I'm sure I'll always feel that same way for my girls....
If you have left the house of Your Father in any way...He longs for you with an unspeakable Love. Please Come Home to His heart...
May God protect and bless them, prosper them and not harm them, give them a hope and a future, make His face to shine upon them and be Gracious unto them. Amen.
A few of our girls at home were recently relocated which was not my choice. I grieved the loss as they left. I had poured heart and soul and prayers and every thing I knew how to pour into those radiant princesses of the King of Kings. God told me to allow what was happening to happen and not to fight against it...which is ANTI my NATURE! lol...If anyone really knows me...you know I'll FIGHT for JUSTICE ESPECIALLY WHEN CHILDREN ARE INVOLVED!! haha! So I kept silent and trusted in my Great Big Father! Recently some of the girls have come back to stay with us. Such joy mixed with a great passion filled my heart. I wept tears of...joy as I had been wounded by love for these girls. But two of them have yet to return...! Today as I was eating breakfast ...I was thinking of how it's not enough. It's not enough for only some of them to be back. It's almost more painful because they are reminders that the other ones are not there. I felt such a hole in my heart at their absence. God whispered to me that He feels the same way...
The name of our ministry is My Father's House! The Lord began to speak to me that the way I was feeling was a tiny ounce of what He feels when His children leave His house... and then return! What joy what Love what wonderful cries there are in Heaven when they return. and when they don't? There is a hole in the heart of the Father that longs for them that aches and pleads for them. He never gives up on them. He always wants them to come back HOME. I'm sure I'll always feel that same way for my girls....
If you have left the house of Your Father in any way...He longs for you with an unspeakable Love. Please Come Home to His heart...
May God protect and bless them, prosper them and not harm them, give them a hope and a future, make His face to shine upon them and be Gracious unto them. Amen.
God's Heart for Orphans ...and the Orphan-hearted!
On the day you were born your cord was not cut, nor were you washed with water to make you clean, nor were you rubbed with salt or wrapped in cloths. 5 No one looked on you with pity or had compassion enough to do any of these things for you. Rather, you were thrown out into the open field, for on the day you were born you were despised.
6 " 'Then I passed by and saw you kicking about in your blood, and as you lay there in your blood I said to you, "Live!" [a] 7 I made you grow like a plant of the field. You grew up and developed and became the most beautiful of jewels. [b] Your breasts were formed and your hair grew, you who were naked and bare.
8 " 'Later I passed by, and when I looked at you and saw that you were old enough for love, I spread the corner of my garment over you and covered your nakedness. I gave you my solemn oath and entered into a covenant with you, declares the Sovereign LORD, and you became mine.
9 " 'I bathed [c] you with water and washed the blood from you and put ointments on you. 10 I clothed you with an embroidered dress and put leather sandals on you. I dressed you in fine linen and covered you with costly garments. 11 I adorned you with jewelry: I put bracelets on your arms and a necklace around your neck, 12 and I put a ring on your nose, earrings on your ears and a beautiful crown on your head. 13 So you were adorned with gold and silver; your clothes were of fine linen and costly fabric and embroidered cloth. Your food was fine flour, honey and olive oil. You became very beautiful and rose to be a queen. 14 And your fame spread among the nations on account of your beauty, because the splendor I had given you made your beauty perfect, declares the Sovereign LORD.
EZEKIEL 16.
God in His awesome Glory and Compassion...transforms orphans into royalty.
"How Great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called the children of God" 1 John 3:1
6 " 'Then I passed by and saw you kicking about in your blood, and as you lay there in your blood I said to you, "Live!" [a] 7 I made you grow like a plant of the field. You grew up and developed and became the most beautiful of jewels. [b] Your breasts were formed and your hair grew, you who were naked and bare.
8 " 'Later I passed by, and when I looked at you and saw that you were old enough for love, I spread the corner of my garment over you and covered your nakedness. I gave you my solemn oath and entered into a covenant with you, declares the Sovereign LORD, and you became mine.
9 " 'I bathed [c] you with water and washed the blood from you and put ointments on you. 10 I clothed you with an embroidered dress and put leather sandals on you. I dressed you in fine linen and covered you with costly garments. 11 I adorned you with jewelry: I put bracelets on your arms and a necklace around your neck, 12 and I put a ring on your nose, earrings on your ears and a beautiful crown on your head. 13 So you were adorned with gold and silver; your clothes were of fine linen and costly fabric and embroidered cloth. Your food was fine flour, honey and olive oil. You became very beautiful and rose to be a queen. 14 And your fame spread among the nations on account of your beauty, because the splendor I had given you made your beauty perfect, declares the Sovereign LORD.
EZEKIEL 16.
God in His awesome Glory and Compassion...transforms orphans into royalty.
"How Great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called the children of God" 1 John 3:1
I can't...but Jesus Can!
Assurance in Jesus
May Jesus assure you that as you follow Him
you will never meet a fear He cannot conquer,
you will never face an enemy He cannot defeat,
you will never enter a battle He cannot win,
you will never have a need He cannot meet,
you will never face a temptation He cannot overcome,
you will never have a burden He cannot lift,
you will never face a problem He cannot solve,
you will never have a bondage He cannot break,
you will never have a moment when He does not care,
you will never have a time when He is not there.
The past few days I've been swimming in problems I cannot solve...needs I cannot provide for...sickness, hunger, disease, poverty. I can't ...but JESUS CAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I believe He can and I believe HE WILL DO THIS! <3 YES! :-)
May Jesus assure you that as you follow Him
you will never meet a fear He cannot conquer,
you will never face an enemy He cannot defeat,
you will never enter a battle He cannot win,
you will never have a need He cannot meet,
you will never face a temptation He cannot overcome,
you will never have a burden He cannot lift,
you will never face a problem He cannot solve,
you will never have a bondage He cannot break,
you will never have a moment when He does not care,
you will never have a time when He is not there.
The past few days I've been swimming in problems I cannot solve...needs I cannot provide for...sickness, hunger, disease, poverty. I can't ...but JESUS CAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I believe He can and I believe HE WILL DO THIS! <3 YES! :-)
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